A bunch of VERY random thoughts- you might need to take an intermission- a LONG one :)

So I've been doing a lot of thinking lately... I know "Uh-Oh"....and yes, I do have to share my thoughts with everyone :)...

So we were finally able to find another little car for Nate's commute! It was a WAY good deal on a Ford Taurus (Jared and Paulette- I PROMISE we are not trying to copy you. It is really just a bunch of coincidences!). We're hoping it will last all of his driving to work and back here, and then get him to and from Oklahoma City every couple of weekends while he is in training there. Seems like a good little car.

Yesterday when I dropped off Charity at school I realized what a big girl she is (yes, Annie, it happens to all of us and quite often for me :)). It hit me that she is doing something that she has never seen anyone else (in our family) do! She is going to school! The first one! I just thought what a huge amount of courage that would take. I always had my big brother to look up to. He did everything (well, almost everything) before I did, so I always knew how it was going to go- I knew all about the Mayflower on the first day of school, as well as the plane ride. I knew we were going to do Shakespeare Plays and I totally wasn't scared at all to try out- all because of my big brother. So it amazes me that Charity has so much courage and is so good at being the oldest! She makes sure she says good bye to EVERYONE, individuatlly, at least once, as she jumps out of the car. She tells me to have a nice day and to "be good too" :) She's just such a big girl. I'm so proud of her. I can tell that she was made for the role she is in. Heavenly Father didn't make her the oldest on accident. She's so good at it!

Today when I was dropping off Charity (yep, I do it everyday, can't seem to find anyone in afternoon kindergarten that will carpool!) - I was confused with the dilemma: do I let people cut in front of me so that everyone can move around and get out of the school parking lot smoothly, thus ticking off the soccer-mom in the car behind me, or do I just be a complete jerk and whiz on past, ticking off the soccer-mom in the car that's been sitting there since the bell rang with her signal blinking away??? I mean really?? For the last little while, I made it my goal to not be rushed in that parking lot. To not be the one honking at every single car that stops or gets in my way. And to try to go out of my way to be a courteous driver, even if I am in a school parking lot. But then today as I let 2 cars go in front of me and the person behind me was honking (and giving me a pretty nast look in my sideview) it hit me that maybe, just maybe, letting people go ahead of me wasn't the right thing to do. Who knows. Just goes to show you that you can't please everyone!

Last night in the car the kids were all asleep except Luke and Noah. Out of nowhere Luke started laughing. It wasn't just a one time thing, he was laughing hysterically for like 3 minutes at least, he kept saying "whunny, mommy, whunny" and it kept getting more and more exciting to me :)! I couldn't imagine what it was he was laughing at. He finally stopped laughing long enough (to breathe and) to tell me that it was the "babeee, whunny" that he was laughing at. Now how CUTE was taht!!! I was totally on a cloud thinking, "my two-year old and his new baby brother are totally BONDING! They must be feeling each other's Spirits and knowing that they are eternal buds or something!". Well, at the next light I finally turned around to see just what it was that had bonded these guys for eternity, and to my surprise, I found Luke with his foot stretched clear up and over Noah's carseat. He had had his foot (with the shoe on) on Noah! Probably on his face I would imagine. And he was just having the time of his life!!!! SIGH!! Well, at least Noah wasn't crying. Couldn't be too bad, since Noah has perfected the art of informing me when he is in pain (or needing to be topped off :)). But anyway- I was a little disappointed to say the least. :) Luke's still just a normal little 2-year old having a good ol' time while being strapped in a carseat for hours, next to his baby brother.

Yesterday when we were taking Nate to work we heard them announce on the radio that the inversion was really bad and that "you should avoid going outside"! AVOID GOING OUTSIDE?? How WEIRD! Then I looked around and knew what they were talking about. Totally made me miss Alaska. You can see for MILES and MILES on a clear day there- and there is no such thing as "inversion". I remember standing at that spot out by the airport and being able to see Mt. McKinley hundreds of miles away~! Oh well though, just something else to remind me of Alaska. Don't take fresh air for granted. That's my new motto. I guess I still would have to choose family and friends (and Jalepeno Bites from Arby's and Olive Garden and Target and Temple Square) over fresh air though. :) (I do miss Alaska though!)


Well, that's all I really had to say. I appreciate you all letting me write down my feelings. For some reason it is easier for me to post a blog entry than it is for me to just sit and write in my journal. Must be the hope that someone actually might read it. Cut and paste now I guess.